No, I'm not talking about Christmas, that will come later. I'm talking about the end of my semester. I go to school full time, which is proving to be a challenge. Thankfully, this is finals week and I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. I don't feel like I can fully get into the spirit of Christmas until my semester is officially over and I'm on break from work. Does anyone else feel this way? It seems as though we need a special event to mark the beginning of the festivities.
But I digress, back to my original thoughts, school. I had been in college before I found out that I was going to become a mother. Looking back at that time in my life, I realize that I never really had a direction. I couldn't choose just one path to go down that would satisfy me for the rest of my life, so I chose the no-path path. Living in limbo, enjoying young adulthood, doing whatever I wanted at a whim, it was nice enough. It wasn't until I found out that I was going to be a mommy that I started taking life seriously.
I dropped out of school due to pregnancy related illnesses. A while after I had my daughter, I realized that I needed to be her main role model. What kind of role model would I be working a part time job and living off of my parents charity? With that on my mind, I enrolled back in school and told God that if He wanted me to do this, He was going to have to help me get back in. In almost no time I received my acceptance letter, and I've been working hard in school ever since. I still have an entire year before I get my bachelors, which seems so long. After that, I will have to go back to school in the Teaching Credentialing Program. All of this has to be done before I can even start my career.
At times, I feel like I'm going nowhere. I feel like my life is passing me by, my child is growing up, and I haven't done anything. I'm sure some of you other moms out there feel this way. I'm here to say, let go of those thoughts and hold onto your plans and dreams.
It's so important for mothers to be the role models their children need them to be. Sometimes, as moms, we focus on achievement and showing our children how accomplished we can be. While it's important to feel good about what you've done and give your children valid reasons to look up to you, I think that we forget one thing that's even more important than that. Our children need to see that it's O.K. to have big dreams and plans for the future. They need to see that some of the best things in life require a great deal of hard work, planning, effort, and time. Children focus on the here and now, and so does our society. We need to bring our children back to the past, where people were able to wait for something far greater than what they could get immediately.
The moral of the story? It's alright for us mommies to feel disheartened and far away from our goals and dreams at times. It's alright to dip into the self pity jar once in a while. What's not O.K. is giving up on those dreams and goals. You will not only hurt yourself, but your children as well. They see more than you think. So while I'm whining about how long it's taking me to complete school, my daughter will see me persevering, getting up when I fail, working hard, focusing on greater things, and she will emulate that when she gets older. Not only that, she will see her mommy accomplish something no one else thought she would, which can be priceless.
STAY STRONG MOMMIES AND KNOW YOU ARE LOVED!
If you ever need advice or help, please don't hesitate to e-mail me ladies.
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